Life is amazing in many ways. Especially when it sends people our way and we have no idea what their purpose is in our life but we know to trust it because it just feels right. In this case, Marie is one of those people life sent our way. By our, I mean you and I, the world, so her story can be heard and shared to inspire; let us all know that when we think we've hit rock bottom, there are still worlds of opportunities waiting for us to explore and open doors to new levels of success. Her story is one many people can relate to and if you do, be inspired by it, look yourself in the mirror and ask yourself what amazing things you can do today, and go do them.
Marie's story in her own words...
Well, I’m not sure where I should start my story. I could explain my childhood and teenage years but maybe the “why” is not the most important. So I’ll start with the facts and tell you about my life between 19 and 31 and where I am today.
When I was 19, I started working in a bar. At that time in my life, I never had a single drink, or even smoked a cigarette. As a very shy person, working in the bar made me feel more and more comfortable being around other people. Relationships seemed so easy; the bar atmosphere was all about feeling free and everyone was always smiling. I never felt at ease my entire life until working at the bar and it felt great. And the money, it came easily. A few months after starting working there, a DJ offered me a line of cocaine, and without even thinking about the consequences, I accepted. I had no idea that one line would last more than 10 years. Working at the bar was all about partying and at that time I didn’t realize something was wrong because everyone around me lived that way and it became a natural part of my every day life.
After some time, I started working in a club and that's when my life really took a nose dive. With the hard drugs came alcohol, and later harder drugs. Every night was a nonstop party and I had no idea what I was doing to myself. I was like the walking dead; my soul left me and I was just a broken body. People around me thought my life was over and in fact, so did I. Only death could break the cycle that I could not break myself.
And then came the special night that saved my life, December 21, 2011. At this point, I hadn’t slept in 3 days. I don’t know what happened in my brain, as words can’t describe it, but maybe the strongest survival instinct kicked in that night? That night, in a split second, I realized I was going to die and I also realized I didn't want to be that person. I knew if I was going to die, my life would of been such a waste. I felt so ashamed because I knew I didn’t achieve anything at this point, and thought my life was worthless. So in that special split second on that special night, a special strength replaced death with LIFE. I decided I was done with that creepy life and quit everything, luckily with no pain or difficulties. That is when my real life started, that special night.
Many things have happened since I decided to live; I've met amazing people, accomplished professional projects I am proud of, redeveloped my relationship with my father and sister, moved alone to the countryside and have the most peaceful life ever. I had no concept life could be this beautiful and that I would enjoy every minute, every sunshine ray, every smile, and I would take care of myself as a precious human.
I know as long as there's life, there is still hope! I'm really proud of myself and who I’ve become. So on December 22, 2011, that special night, is my proudest moment!